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liling.bun.lumpy.jerray
I'm not your typical kind of girl.
I'm being classified as weird, cranky, horrible-looking, man-like person
probably



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lyrics: SEAMO // cry baby
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i didn't make it
Tuesday, December 29, 2009

i didn't make it for the top 40 in the audition.
nevermind.
it's a nice experience, a good try out for me.
i'll just keep trying hehe.


i realised.
when everything has changed, has changed.
when stone hit stone.
they never agree with each other.
i swear in many years in my life, this year sucked REALLY BADLY
probably i still have many "sucked shit" years to go on.
but i really hate 2009.
i've never hate things as much as this.

i came across ridiculous people. (i bet there are more to come)
i began to lose patience in what i believe.
i realised, actually i'm kinda alone.
as usual, i shouldn't be thinking much.

in 2007, i realised what shit your relatives can do to you.
in 2009, i started the shit year off. unable to contact my friend at the very last minute of countdown. i saw the bitch that was hiding, and was already warned by others in 2008. i held on to my belief. And thank you very much. you broke it.
in 2009, i saw how stubborn i could get, how adamant i could be. how much mental distress i went through.. all the sudden cries, the sudden anger, the sudden laughter. how i regret choosing the course and wasting 3 years into all this shit. how people's true colours show during this 6 months. how i would be happier if i just tolerate and ignore some minor shit would make the world happier. how i really felt the word alone. how i understand the word family. how i wished to throw away everything to start anew somewhere.