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Saturday, August 22, 2009

When everything has come to this state.
there's this tinge of regret, this tinge of "why did things come to this way"
people gets fustrated, deletes you from facebook, msn, gmail and etc blah blah.

it really makes me think about "what if"
what if things were not this way.
what if she didn't tell.
what if ......

i don't know.
probably she feels wronged about the email and all.
and my sudden burst of anger contained in within decided to explode made me type that mail.
it's like.. after hearing what in the world that small little girl said..
it was heartbreaking and somewhat too much disappointment.
with the way everyone thinks about me and all.
wow. great. i would really say that i'll rather bitch with the guys.

i had too much thoughts on this.
one part which is apologetic, one part regretful and one part is "i have to be happy-go-lucky" mask.
saying to ignore is too easy.. but is it really possible?
true that i was laughing at the fact that she deleted me. but down in the heart, i think it was more of too much disappointment to say.

haha. so.. is this worse than a breakup?
i really wonder why always to i have to face this sort of crying stuffs whenever i have exams.
before it was during prelims..
now it's like... a week before exams.

if that's what life's about.
it probably just sucked if the same routine were to appear everytime in the entire whole lifetime.
though happy things appear more than the depressing things in life.
but with one depressing shit, it somewhat makes life looks shit.
ally said.. we must learn something from everything.
but it's too.. sad to face i think.

that's why i said. i don't believe in friends forever.
serious.